i’m sick of this constant hunger

i’m still too scared to eat solid food because i don’t want to start gushing blood everywhere again. i can eat mashed potatoes and like…really ripe watermelon and cantaloupe, but i’m sick of everything else that i can eat (jello, ice cream, oatmeal, pasta). my parents are making me drink nutrition shakes because i’ve already lost more than 10 pounds (i’m down to 128 btw).  i can only eat really small amounts at a time before i don’t want to put the effort into eating anymore.  this means that i have to eat like every two hours or else my stomach will start growling at me.

i know i just sound like a complainatron right now, but i can’t help it -______-

this is really making me appreciate the fact that food is so easily available to me.

26 june 2011